Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Taking it easy is definitely not easy

I've been very well behaved, not doing dishes or switching laundry loads. I've barely set foot in the kitchen and have kept my mouth tightly latched about things I would do differently.

But inside, I'm struggling. Part of me is exhausted and wants to sleep 24/7. The other part of me is stressed out because Neighbor Gloria is spending Christmas with us and I have nothing to give her.

I had planned on making her a set of greeting cards, but ran out of time. Then Hayley suggested I knit up some wash clothes on the loom, but I don't know how to bind off from a loom.

I still have today and tomorrow to get my act in gear, but I shouldn't even be worrying about it. She certainly isn't expecting anything. But that's just it. She isn't expecting anything. Her family won't get her a single thing. I want to have some little things for her.

But seriously, the woman is almost 88. She doesn't need anything. She doesn't want anything except companionship. Can't wrap that in a box.

So here I am feeling guilty as all get out. I'm supposed to be letting this kind of thing go!

Tell me, Delicious Readers, how do I let the guilt go? I think I'll take a nap and then figure it out.

1 comment:

Mandajuice said...

It's funny - if you threw my LACK of guilt into a bottle and shook it up with your ACTUAL guilt? We'd probably both end up perfect. We haven't even hung up xmas lights this year and I can't bring myself to care.

You've already given your 88-year-old neighbor everything she needs - yourself. Don't worry about anything else!